Cringle

Have a happy one! Have a happy solstice and a happy new year, and a happy the rest of your life! All dreams fulfilled in 2006, ok? OK.
Oh! I'm keeping ON THE TIP OF MY TONGUE on the air by the way.
Thanks Dave, Dia, Mark and all who encouraged me to keep going!
Cee
xox

Flashback

Was thinking on the great time had one summer in the late 80s when 2 friends of mine and I embarked on a Church Tour of the East Coast. This was when I had my fanzine From Ears and Mouth (title taken from the goth boys Bauhaus) and when we were all young and full of grace. All expectations, though we had few to be honest, were exceeded. Astounded at every step over the cordiality and genuine interest the band and crew extended our way I felt extremely lucky and at times undeserving. My head in a constant spin I danced each night during that summer tour capturing memories like falling stars and keeping them safe in my latin summer heart.

Falter

Standing on the edge, finding myself at a crossroads...it’s somewhere I don’t like to be because eventually I have to make a decision. Whatever path I take it means I’ll have to count on someone else to help me reach my goal and that means there is always a risk for things to go wrong. If I make the mistake, if the error falls only upon my shoulders I can deal with it because I know I’ll learn from the slip up and will unlikely repeat it. With others, I cannot count on that kind of guarantee it will always be a 50-50 shot at things going right and things going wrong. I hate that risk, I hate depending on others to help maintain my good reputation as a producer yet I doubt if I’d be allowed to walk my tapes from station to station at the studio in order to secure a flawless playback. If I continue my show the possibility of a compromised playback will be the risk that I will always have to face. Twice a month for as long as I continue. Do I dub to vhs and lose a generation and risk lousy sound? Do I move my show to a timeslot when someone at the studio will, maybe, answer the phone when the playback is an abomination? Do I pack it all in? If I pack it all in I won’t have to depend on anyone else. If I simply dedicate my time to producing features for Newsroom I won’t have these problems and I’ll still get the music out, maybe airing a special here and there will be all that is needed to keep my sanity. Maybe the phone will ring and the person on the other end will decide for me... hmmm...waiting...

I believe in everything

Grew up listening to the Beatles, thanks to my brother who is 7 years my senior. It seems like their music was always playing in the forefront and in the background. I would sit there with the record sleeve following each lyric as if it were gospel and now that I think of it the Beatles were probably my first music idol worship. I bombarded my brother Carlos with questions like: “Who is Edgar Allen Poe?” (I’m Am the Walrus) and “What’s the Albert Hall?” (A Day in The Life). Carlos would sometimes be square with me and tell me the truth, other times I’m sure he fed me a bunch of rubbish, I was after all his “pesky” 7 year old little sister. Hey, his fault for introducing me to this intriguing music. I remember marveling over the Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart Club’s Band record cover, Abbey Road’s mysterious picture of the four lads crossing that immortalized crosswalk and discussing each of their different outfits and the significance they played in that old rumor that Paul was dead. I remember in 4th grade one of the Sisters at my school was teaching us Let It Be and when I came home singing the lyrics, Carlos was horrified. He was horrified because I was claiming the song as mine so to speak, singing it loud and proud! He eventually got over it. We moved to Mexico and The Beatles were gods there, I often translated songs for my friends and we would spend hours wearing out the grooves on our LPs! My friend Veronica could play most of their songs on guitar and I was quite impressed. Coming back to the US five years later we still had our Beatles record collection intact though the record covers were definitely showing their age and the inner sleeves were becoming a bit tattered, handled with love and respect I suspect Carlos may have these forever. I bought Double Fantasy when it came out in the Summer of 1980 and welcomed (Just Like) Starting Over", as well as "Beautiful Boy (Darling Boy)" and "Woman" as some of my favorite John Lennon compositions. On December 8, 1980 I received a call at work, it was my brother Carlos, he told me that John Lennon had been shot and killed. I thought he was lying, I thought he was trying to freak me out. It took him about 10 minutes to convince me that it was the truth. I turned on one of the radios in my department and to my dismay the news was confirmed. I just realized this second that John Lennon came “alive” in my world because of words from my brother Carlos, and coming full circle, I learned of John Lennon’s departure from this realm through the same messenger.
I miss John
I miss George

I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?
John Lennon

Wonky

My brother and my parents are caught in this swirling circle of conflict. No one wants to break it and all are, by their own admission, too old to change. I'm glad I'm far away, I'm stressed I'm far away. We may be heading in their direction in January or Februay, maybe for Mum's birthday, a trip to brighten her days. At least that's my expectation, my hope (which is feeling fragile and bleak).

Storm's out; Sun's in

We made it through. Tree branches, pine cones and leaves are scattered everywhere but the robins have returned to the lawns.
I think we can officially say that our San Francisco Summer is ovah!
Editing the Hans Teichman footage tomorrow, the lad surprised us all. Maybe I'll toss in some of Justus' footage on Eoin even though Liliana hasn't responded about an interview in January. I know, I know, the guy has bigger fish to fry, still...

The Scene So Far

Hey now, it's Colin Devlin's birthday tomorrow! Just thought I'd mentioned that for no particular reason, no action needed, plenty of distraction considered.


I had PC come into the studio to talk about his new CD: 20 Haiku, the show went really well and I think I’m going to submit it for the local and national video awards under two categories: Entertainment and Talk Show. Paul Manousos did another segment for the show as well and we found out that if you light the shimmering curtain all in blue it’s becomes blue screen, so we did some cool effects on it for a song or two. The only problem was that Paul was also wearing blue so if we used it too much he would have been reduced to a floating head and that’s not a good look for anyone. PC’s segment aired on November 5th and Paul’s on November 19. Paul will have an encore airing on December 3rd because I couldn’t swing editing prior to that date and because it’s just a damn good segment! So watch the show if you’re in San Francisco on December 3rd, 7:30pm, Channel 29.

In communicating with Garrin Benfield I’ve booked the lad for February 4th. Should be good. BTW you can find Paul Manousos and Garrin Benfield by the search feature in myspace.

For the past 3 days San Francisco’s been wet which means loads of people driving very badly. Today the sun is making a brave effort in fighting back the clouds, making for a very dramatic sky!

The Devlins have 2 more days left on their Irish tour then the lads are going on vacation, separately of course!

Los Amigos Invisibles played Bimbo’s last Saturday and it was an excellent 2 hour show filled with lounge-esque merengue cumbia mambo beats, too difficult to describe so check out some of their tunes at Amazon.

Finally watched Mad Hot Ballroom and Midnight Cowboy, yeah, you need a neck brace for that segue!
Laters,
C